DID JESUS HAVE THIS DIALOGUE?

I have listened to a plethora of music and only a handful have been able to capture my attention the way that this song did, "I Only Want To Say (Gethsemane)" from the Jesus Christ Superstar soundtrack.  Not only the dynamic performance of Steve Balsamo but the actual lyrics followed by the challenge that it presents to how we talk about the day Jesus died.

Listen closely to the words or read the lyrics I have posted in this blog.  What do you think?  Did Jesus have this dialogue with God?  The questions He poses and the perspective he shares"so keen on when and how but not why"  - Do we know why but Jesus died.... but he was unsure?  My goal is not the discredit, etc.... however more about sharing art that makes me think and challenge the world around me. Thoughts...

I Only Want To Say (Gethsemane) Lyrics

I only want to say

If there is a way

Take this cup away from me

For I don't want to taste its poison

Feel it burn me,

I have changed I'm not as sure

As when we started

Then I was inspired

Now I'm sad and tired

Listen surely I've exceeded

Expectations

Tried for three years

Seems like thirty

Could you ask as much

From any other man?

But if I die

See the saga through

And do the things you ask of me

Let them hate me, hit me, hurt me

Nail me to their tree

I'd want to know

I'd want to know my God

I'd want to know

I'd want to know my God

I'd want to see

I'd want to see my God

I'd want to see

I'd want to see my God

Why I should die

Would I be more noticed

Than I ever was before?

Would the things I've said and done

Matter any more?

I'd have to know

I'd have to know my Lord

I'd have to know

I'd have to know my Lord

I'd have to see

I'd have to see my Lord

I'd have to see

I'd have to see my Lord

If I die what will be my reward?

If I die what will be my reward?

I'd have to know

I'd have to know my Lord

I'd have to know

I'd have to know my Lord

Why, why should I die?

Oh, why should I die?

Can you show me now

That I would not be killed in vain?

Show me just a little

Of your omnipresent brain

Show me there's a reason

For your wanting me to die

You're far too keen on where and how

But not so hot on why

Alright I'll die!

Just watch me die!

See how, see how I die!

Oh, just watch me die!

Then I was inspired

Now I'm sad and tired

After all I've tried for three years

Seems like ninety

Why then am I scared

To finish what I started

What you started

I didn't start it

God thy will is hard

But you hold every card

I will drink your cup of poison

Nail me to your cross and break me

Bleed me, beat me

Kill me, take me now

Before I change my mind


Today I Am... challenging the world around me with questions and inquiries :)

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30 DAY FULL VOICE CHALLENGE - Day 20

The 30-Day Full Voice Challenge continues and today I was able to get in 30 minutes of vocalizing.  Last night during my regular vocal performance class, we watched a video from our live performance last week.  Watching yourself is ALWAYS hard and my lack of committing to my 25 healthy meals... definitely came to mind as I was watching my arms move with the reverb on the microphone.  :) 


Take aways from the live performance: 

1. One my song "Don't Make Me Over" I need to pronounce the ending consonants 
2. Cut back on vibrato on my song "Loverman, Oh Where Can You Be?" 
3. Connect with the audience by looking into their eyes and talking directly to them through song

Overall, I am VERY proud of the performance. I juuuuuuuust might upload a video clip... maybe! LOL



Today I Am... happy with progress!  

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LOVING iCARLY

When I turn on my TV it is not surprising to find it tuned into Nickelodeon since I am THE biggest SpongeBob Squarepants fan, and today was no different.  I turned on the TV to hear that iCarly, a show about a high school aged girl named Carly and her online variety show, was coming on.  Today as the theme song played I stopped to listen and really love the message they are sharing through song and now I am sharing with you.  Enjoy.

iCarly Theme Song ~ Lyrics

I know, you see
Somehow the world will change for me
And be so wonderful

Live life, breathe air
I know somehow we're gonna get there
And feel so wonderful
And it's all for real

I'm telling you just how I feel
So wake up the members of my nation
It's your time to be 
There's no chance unless you take one
And it's time to see 
The brighter side of every situation
Somethings are meant to be
So give your best and leave the rest to me
Leave it all to me
Leave it all to me
Just leave it all to me

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USING MY TIME WISELY

One of the most challenging things about pursuing my “musical” goals is finding the time outside of my work responsibilities to fully focus on personal tasks. With the recent 30-Day Full Voice Challenge finding “time” has been especially difficult.

It is easy to say that there are not enough hours in the day, however, that is not entirely true. My problem is there are not enough hours in my day where I am functioning 100%. A part of managing time well is to identify which hours of the day you are at your best. My best hours are somewhere between 1AM and 5AM when I have to make myself go to bed in order to function at my 9-5.

So how do we make this work????

Most of the time I am squeezing vocal exercises in to my evenings however today I discovered that using my lunch hour proved to be a perfect time to get an hour of vocalizing in and even run through the lyrics of a new song. So if you are having trouble finding the time because you have to go to a full-time job then try using your breaks and lunches as ways to get a personal task done… you can eat at your desk or take bites between notes (like I did to my yummy egg sandwich).

Happy Singing!

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Catching up on blogging about the 30-Day Full Voice Challenge

With the closing of April I started off May with lots of energy and the hopes of being a heavy contender in the 30-Day Full Voice Challenge hosted by the Broadway Dance Center.  I started a blog that was only about the challenge... however I decided to move it to my personal blog.  The challenge requires that you...

1. Vocalize everyday for 30 minutes to an hour
2. 4 private voice lessons
3. 2 coaching sessions
4. 1 live vocal performance
5. 1 live performance 
6. 1 NY Industry Audition
7. 1 new demo performance
8. 25 health conscience meals 
9. 20 healthy body conditioning or dance classes 
10. 5 charitable events 

Out of the ten areas I have been vocalizing everyday and have actually found a new way that is lots of fun.  I warm up using a CD given to me by my previous vocal coach and then I turn on my favorite Broadway CD and then grab my mic and amplifier and sing along as if I am on stage.  

As for the other areas I have completed my 2 coaching sessions, as well as my live performance which took place on May 12th at IDO Sushi at 29 7th Avenue with pianist Tommy Mandel who was WONDERFUL! and made me sound wonderful. Before I left my day job one of my co-workers (who I recently discovered had a career on Broadway) gave me a great prep talk and told me "Sing for yourself" and that is just what I did!

The next day, May 13th, I completed my inspirational live vocal performance / concert by seeing Wycliffe Gordan's Jazz A La Carte at the Apollo Theater in Harlem, NY.  I did not go to this performance thinking I would walk out feeling inspired vocally by this event... however I was pleasantly surprised.  17-year-old Nikki Yanofsky graced the stage and sang one of my favorite songs, "Someone to Watch Over Me" and she did an AMAZING job of making the song her own.  I was inspired not only by the purity in her voice but how much the music was in her body and movements.  She is inspirational and I am honored to have seen her perform live.

This week I am hoping to knock out the 1 NY Industry Audition, get some of the conditioning classes under my belt and find some charitable events to attend... So we will see what happens! 

Today I Am... ignoring the overwhelmed feeling! :-)

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